All This For A King

long over due

2009-06-09T08:39:00.001-07:00

hrm....so i guess if i have to write about something it'll be about basilea

um lets see i begin with week 2 i suppose. chris dickson was meh... the speaker nicole something in my opinion was a story teller up until the last 10 minutes when she got to her actual message. but the small group leaders track was pretty eye opening. i did not realize how many people came to christ and how fellowships grew through small groups it really burned me up to get this going this coming year and ill be doing an all freshman small group so get um young and make a real impact on the campus. but the real blessings that came upon the already blessings. so this was like the ever so delicious blessing frosting on the blessing frosting on the cake known as my life. work crew.... so i was a server i had no real expectations coming in but from get go the brothers and sisters were pretty cool pretty open and loving they were actually majority asian so i guess it was some what comfortable. i was a server and ive never done this kind of serving thing before but it was HUMBLING...taking the orders of people. i was nothing i basically just gave them what ever they wanted it was something else i was really ticked off towards the later meals just cause i was tired and all that nonsense but then they gave us a message that we get to show christs love through the way we serve. to show that they are loved. which is the reason why every table was set up perfectly the same, chairs were perfectly aligned with each other just the most craziest 5 star stuff. by the end of the week they do this thing. who got saved during this retreat. and behold the dude that sat at my table every day minus 1 day(which was the day he got saved i know because when he asked me for hotsauce he was REALLY happy to see me. unlike the other days where he kinda wished i was someone else). in any case basilea big big blessing. hopefully i wont lose fire over this summer. =/ hard part.

2009-04-07T17:53:00.000-07:00

if christianity is what it says it is it only makes sense to devote one's entire life because of what it claims, and what it offers it makes no sense to believe the truth that christianity boasts and yet not devote one's entire life.

and yet here i am. still not giving my entire life to christ. please pray for my lack of faith right now.

god listens, god delivers. prayers dont go out of our mouths and get lost.

2009-03-21T10:32:00.000-07:00

19 The next morning the Israelites got up and pitched camp near Gibeah. 20 The men of Israel went out to fight the Benjamites and took up battle positions against them at Gibeah. 21 The Benjamites came out of Gibeah and cut down twenty-two thousand Israelites on the battlefield that day. 22 But the men of Israel encouraged one another and again took up their positions where they had stationed themselves the first day. 23 The Israelites went up and wept before the LORD until evening, and they inquired of the LORD. They said, "Shall we go up again to battle against the Benjamites, our brothers?"
The LORD answered, "Go up against them."

24 Then the Israelites drew near to Benjamin the second day. 25 This time, when the Benjamites came out from Gibeah to oppose them, they cut down another eighteen thousand Israelites, all of them armed with swords.

26 Then the Israelites, all the people, went up to Bethel, and there they sat weeping before the LORD. They fasted that day until evening and presented burnt offerings and fellowship offerings [c] to the LORD. 27 And the Israelites inquired of the LORD. (In those days the ark of the covenant of God was there, 28 with Phinehas son of Eleazar, the son of Aaron, ministering before it.) They asked, "Shall we go up again to battle with Benjamin our brother, or not?"
The LORD responded, "Go, for tomorrow I will give them into your hands."
judges 20

lol i realized that i posted this without acutally writing wut i thought. so. these people prayed for victory overbenjamites and so first time...fail. so what did they do next? they didnt blame god and give up. they cried out louder and got down lower. and god answered and rocked them. lesson? well. its kind of obvious. for me i always pray for stuff...not always happens what do i do? i usually stop being in my human mind i think in such a small perspective that i dont really have the large picture(only god could really have the large picture but..yea) and so when i pray for somethign i resolve to pray until it is done. to fast and pray for the things we want god to deliver us from to give us victory praise god because theres a huge book that accounts for everytime he was there.

judges 10

2009-03-17T09:13:00.001-07:00

this is the god i worship
this is the god i love
and the god that i put my trust in

"And the children of israel said to the lord"we have sinned! do to us whatever seems best to you; only deliver us this day, we pray." 16 so they put away the foreign gods from among them and served the lord. AND HIS SOUL COULD NO LONGER ENDURE THE MISERY OF ISRAEL." ~judges 10.15-16

god feels our pain, god hears our cries. he rejoices with us in triumph and mourns with us in sorrow. he delivers us from evil and guides us through storms. he is the greatest power in this universe and what ever else hes created and he chose US. praise god.

2009-02-27T22:46:00.001-08:00

huh... so i heard about the church from esther uh pastor kim leaving and the possibility of a church break up. ive been in 2 church break ups before and i really wonder why these things happen. what happens that god closes his house, but then i think why do we hold so tightly to the church we are apart of? its these bonds that we make that i dont really see in any other church. i havent blogged in awhile, keep putting it off, i guess this situation just pushed me to write. so ill start by updating, uh well im still reading 1 chapter away from joshua so that'll start tomrrow...or today its 1.50 am. so i dont have much thoughts on this church situation, to be honest it seems so far away from me. im not sure what im supposed to think, 1 part will miss all the people but another part knows that if a church is breaking up its a sign that perhaps there was too much complancency w.e u spell that word where you happy with what you got. im not sure. it'll be in my prayers let god lead us to what ever decision that he wants. =/. be strong guys. its a storm, god always sees us through

2009-02-16T12:08:00.000-08:00

btw please pray for my walk, i know thats very vague and kinda worn out everyone says it uh i mean that the verses im trying to memorize really get engraved into my mind and my heart that im seeking god and that im being sanctified daily, please pray for the campus around me, the people in my dorm god would open their hearts to the gospel that they would not hate christianity and god so much and i dont know that i would be unashamed that i got jesus. please pray for jesus awarness week that it would really change hearts, its a success even if 1 person gets saved luke 15. 3-7 uh and pray that the demons would be just knocked out from here because right after jesus awarness week theres islam awarness week or something and those guys will be fasting and praying and you know. when people worship false idols it permits satan to enter, so yea we wanne keep going with jesus awanress week long after its over, so please pray for the christian organizations taht we look to higher goals and not be stuck within our own clubs cuz jesus is jesus whether im korean or hes white. yea i/rutgers needs your prayers. thanks guys and gals. god bless

2009-02-16T11:59:00.000-08:00

did i mention i finished numbers?
im on Deuteronomy yea read chapter 5. woo. another book done hyah!
got my flash cards and im getting the verses down.

main reason why im blogigng
so sunday night i went for some reason randomly i got a call to attend the jaws planning meeting. so jaws is jesus awarness week. and its held by all these differetn christian organizations which is aweasome because from what i hear, since im only a frosh that these organizations dont really work together but thats kinda dumb since we all have the same goal to change this campus into christ centered one. in any case so they were all together and ive never seen such passionate college kids, minus the ones at diaspora. these guys are just pulling out all these crazy plans. to reach out like offer the frats to clean their houses while at the same time showing love and presenting a gospel, etc. etc. in any case this by itself was aweasome but the crazy part was that uh this copule they run the ruhop, rutgers university house of prayer and these guys are crazy about prayer. they had this story bout some copule who visited this famous speaker and they sit down and without knowing the speaker sits next ot them and the copule asks what makes this speaker so powerful? why do all these people drive across the country to see this guy? and the man goes come check out the boiler room and hesitantly they go and they see that in this tiny boiler room theres 600 people praying. and i was just like AHHHH. and this other guy this freshman i was so amazed by this guys insight im so noob comapared to these guys. he goes uh we should be like babies when we pray because babies when they want something they cry and the degree of crying is relative to how badly they want it. so when we want god to work in jaws or to work in the campus we need to pray like we want it. to really pray crying out to god. yea so this has really radically changed my view on prayer ive always known prayer is powerful i guess its just around these people these guys like me, crhstiains in a secular school a clear minority ive come to see that there are no mediocre chrsitians they are either falling into the secular lifestyle or they are reaching out to god more, reaching harder because of this college lifestyle. ive come to realize im getting drawn into it and this was a very very much needed awakening. yea. a crazy end or start to the week. ill be comeing end of the month guys or rather who ever reads this anymore... sorry i havent updated regularly i either forget or am bogged...well this blog only takes 5 minutes...er...yea ill get this going.

2009-02-09T12:48:00.000-08:00

numbers 19-21 please leave a comment with your memorizing tips because its been several days and i cant retain all of them every day i find myself blanking.

woops...

2009-02-07T11:01:00.000-08:00

forgot to blog... so its feb 7 did 14-18 in numbers. and now i have alot of homework to do and a couple tests this week. goodbye.

feb. 4

2009-02-04T12:08:00.000-08:00

numbers 5-7 now i know where that "may the lord bless you and keep. etc. lift his countance upon you and give u peace." comes from, numbers 6. 25-26. yea. still rememorizing i think post its arent doing it i think i have to go to flash cards. oh me. in any case. went to the doc today, finger isnt broken or fractured it'll be ok in a week or so hopefully. took the splint off today which feel great. uh...life is getting more and more hectic. im in a rush every morning to finish everything on time and get to class and i set my alarm clock earlier and i sleep earlier but for some reason im always rushed... its the oddest thing. no, i dont press the snooze button if your wondering. bah. in any case, if you read numbers 7, the offerings that the 12 tribes give is crazy im not sure how the costs would equal now but im willing to bet that it was ALOT. and they offered for like 5 different things or around there. so yea...crazy stuff. see you guys much later.

feb 3

2009-02-03T10:53:00.000-08:00

hi guys... been awhile cuz i got banned from the internet because i sent my friend 2 movies and i forgot that theres an upload limit. so its been a blessing no temptation. an easy week to remain pure while bored. yea. god works in odd ways. in any case while i was not posting \good news and bad news. the bad news is with classes and all theses things to study im havign a hard time remembering my verses, so now i have to stop withnew ones and get the oldones down solid =/ hopefully ill be back on track in a day or 2. the goodnews is iv has started a leadership training that ive beeninvited to woo. and at the same time im reading numbers, oh yea i finished exodus. and u got aaron and moses these guys are clearly leaders, they were called to bring israel out of egypt thats crazy. but now? they are taking censuses so leaders arent called to do the crazy thigns but clearly god uses them to serve. they had to take a census for 600,000 + people and thats only the men over 20....thats ALOT of people... god had them carry out his instructions to the very dot. so yea. hopeuflly ill be humble and recognize that im here as a servant no glory to me. uh yea uh wut else... OH i sprained my pinky on my right hand playing volleyball. been wearing a splint and had an xray on friday see teh doc on wednesday pray that its not a fracture...cuz that stinks it hinders me so much, typing, guitar, sports, showering, writing, LIFE. praying is easywith a splint though haha... yea. so today i read numbers 2-4 and attempting to rememorize acts 10.43 and luke 15.3-7 apparently rememorizing is way easier than memorzing for the first time, but we'll see.

january 26th 2007

2009-01-26T07:18:00.000-08:00

leviticus 4-6
vtm. acts 10. 43 To Him all the prophets witness that, through His name, whoever believes in Him will receive remission of sins.

sin is no joke. god ever since the beginning declared that the price to pay for sin is death. fortuntely for them god allowed a sacrifice. and even more so for us we got the greatest sacrifice. thank you jesus.

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2009-01-25T10:35:00.000-08:00

exodus 39-40, leviticus 1-3
wooo done exodus
vtm. luke 15 7 i say to you that likewise there will be more joy in h eaven over one sinner who repents than over 99 just men who need no repentance.

so. uh well idk a boring sunday. they had to move up the sunday worship up half an hour so that they could have their congregational meeting, since praise has to leave hte sanctuary by 12. anyways. so the worship was good sermon good. and then it hit. the congregational meeting. i dozed off more times than i can count. the immense boringness just swept over me. it was just an hour long talka bout budgets, taxes, roles, future roles of certain people and then more budget talk. oh so boring. so so so boring. im not even a member but i take the "bus" so i couldnt leave, no body got out of their seats. it was just the benediction right into the congregational meeting. sigh. in any case. yea...

2009-01-24T09:05:00.001-08:00

exodus 34-38
vtm. luke 15 5-6 and when he has found it. he lays it on his shoulders, rejoicing. 6. when he comes home he calls together his friends and neighbors saying to them rejoice with me for i have found my sheep with was lost!

sigh still not over the tomlin concert. craziest worship ever at one point israel had all the ppl like lift their hands at "say so" and its so crazy seeing all these hands go up. its something i wont forget. all these christians gathered in one gigantic place just screaming praises. haha. i want more. sigh...on a sadder note today is book buying day.

2009-01-23T09:22:00.000-08:00

exodus 31-33
vtm. luke 15 3,4 So He spoke this parable to them, saying:
4 “What man of you, having a hundred sheep, if he loses one of them, does not leave the ninety-nine in the wilderness, and go after the one which is lost until he finds it?

so i loved moses' "prayer" pleading with god to not destroy the children of israel because they worshipped the golden calf while moses was up in the mountain. he used the words of god, the promises of god and god is good for his word. a good example in prayer, scripture. yea. idk and next chapter moses will see god's back. interesting stuff. UNTIL NEXT TIME. for now i will be going to chris tomlin concert in 4 hours haha. peace.

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2009-01-22T07:16:00.000-08:00

exodus 28-30 more instructions, aaron is now a priest woo
vtm jeremiah 31.34
No more shall every man teach his neighbor, and every man his brother, saying, ‘Know the LORD,’ for they all shall know Me, from the least of them to the greatest of them, says the LORD. For I will forgive their iniquity, and their sin I will remember no more.

tired. oh so very tired.

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2009-01-21T10:29:00.000-08:00

exodus 25-27
vtm psalms 103. 8-12 i love this one.

8. the lord is merciful and gracious, slow to anger and abounding in mercy
9. he will not always strive with us nor will he keep his anger forever
10. he has not dealt with us according to our sins no punish us according to our iniquities
11. for as the heavens are high above the earth, so great is his mercy toward those who fear him
12. for as far the east is from the west so far he removed our transgressions from us

exodus 25-27... very specific god gives very very very very very specific instructions on building his house. now, i guess i can say hes also given us 1 very very very very specfic example to live our lives (hint, when msn asks u a question related to god, the answer will always be "jesus") so. yea very specific is example that jesus left and we are called to live our lives after jesus. yea idk. in any case schools going good im persevering i think thats how u spell it. so yea. ill see u guys later. god bless

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2009-01-20T05:16:00.000-08:00

so god decided that i shall be dumb and think that today was monday, and on monday i have a class at 8.25 am so i woke up at 6.50 to eat breakfast and all that but in fact it was tuesday and i have a class at 10.20...so i had ALOT of time for devo and all. god wants his children to grow in him. in any case god layin down his law in exodus 22-24 vtm. 2 chronicles 7.14 if my people who are called by my name will humble themselves and pray and seek my face and turn from their wicked ways then i will hear from heaven and will forgive their sin and heal their land. peace.

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2009-01-19T09:49:00.000-08:00

exodus 19-21
vtm 1john 4.9 This is how God showed his love among us: He sent his one and only Son into the world that we might live through him.

so god says it himself. he is a jealous god do not make false idols of the sky earth and sea. anything worshiped of the earth is kinda rediculous when everything was created by god yet here i am holding things above god. sigh. colossians 3.2 gotta remember it.

yo yo yo

2009-01-17T13:46:00.000-08:00

lecrae is in the building

"rebel" is on my ipod on side bar check it out.

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2009-01-17T08:27:00.000-08:00

exodus 14-18
vtm john 15.13 greater love has no one than this, than to lay down one's life for his friends

2009-01-16T09:11:00.000-08:00

exodus 11-13
john 15.9 as the father loved me; i also have loved you; abide in my life

2009-01-14T10:23:00.000-08:00

exodus 5-7
vtm jeremiah 31.3-4
the lord has appeared of old to me saying,
"yes, i have loved you with an everlasting love
therefore with lovingkindness i have drawn you
4. again you i will build you, and you shall be rebuilt
o virgin of israel!
you shall again be adorned with your tambourines
and shall go forth in the dances of those who rejoice."

yo. exodus so i grew up thinking exodus, moses goes in those those things and he leaves w. the children, based off of that cartoon movie of moses that i saw as a kid. WRONG. there was aaron. what in the world?!? everything i knew was thrown to bits and pieces. sigh. wow. you think you know the bible and then you read it =,= in any case the children of israel ask god for help, god sends moses and aaron and then they complain because pharoh gets mad and makes them work more when god is still working and doing his thing. its not something i saw as weak on their part, but myself, i ask god for help and expect quick and positive results like abraham, but usually god likes to get creative and it doesnt fly with me so yea it really convicted me i was like ugh. thats me. haha see you all saturday.

toodles,
jason

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2009-01-13T10:18:00.000-08:00

exodus 2-4
i love these verses check it out. 4.10,11,12
10. then moses said to the lord , "o my lord, i am not eloquent, neither before nor since you have spoken to your servant; but i am slow of speech and slow of tongue."
11. so the lord said to him, "who has made mans mouth? or who makes the mute, the deaf, athe seeing, or the blind? have not i , the lord?
12. "now therefore, go, and i will be with your mouth and teach you what you shall say."

man..."i dont know what to say" is no longer an option, we are not given the right to use that excuse. god speaks through us. its as aweasome as that.

vtm. isaiah 54.10 for the mountains shall depart and the hills be removed, but my kindess shall not depart from you, nor shall my covenant of peace be removed, says the lord, who has mercy on you.

=| only one verse for today. oh boy the upcoming vtms are chunky...

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2009-01-12T10:28:00.000-08:00

1 more week and im back. anyways
today was genesis 49-50 exodus 1 yay finished genesis! woooot
vtm proverbs 5 22-23 his own iniquities entrap the wicked man, and he is caught in the cords of his sin. 23 he shall die for lack of instruction, and in the greatness of his folly he shall go astray.
DONE PROVERBS 5 WOOOOOT. how funny that it worked out that way. haha.

1.11

2009-01-11T18:26:00.000-08:00

its triple 1 day =) yay
genesis 44-48
vtm proverbs 5.20-21 for why should you, my son, be enraptured by an immoral woman, and be embraced in the arms of a seductress? 21. for the ways of man are before th eyes of the lord, and he ponders all his paths.

so... what to say what to say oh right. more than the bible readings todays biggest blessing was abraham walking through the doors during bible study. truth be told there are many things i pray about, randomly when ever they come to mind. so lets see, we all found out sunday and then after being this close ( ) <- thats the size . that close to death he comes in on sunday. 1. wow. 2. this is my first time i think where i consciouly knew as soon as i saw him, wow god answered fast. so im starting to call god prayer answerer lol it maybe corny but that was something else. 3days out of the hospital.sigh i could ramble about this alll night long but easily i can sum it up. god is mighty, god is powerful, he is the best doctor, the only life preserver, he keeps blood flowing, he keeps hearts beating, he makes all things new, and sustains them, he works CONSTANTLY, he works perfectly to his own will, and all things he does always brings him glory. he answers prayers, always. he is good. god is always, has been, and always will be, good. he is hated, he is loved, he is wanted and unwanted. but regardless of what we want. god is always there. god is too good. far too good for us. far too good for this universe. cant begin to imagine grace in its fullest. cant imagine god's love where it begins, where it ends. woops rambled...god is overwhelmingly good.always.

10 days have passed

2009-01-10T09:56:00.000-08:00

today was geneesis 39-43
41.15-16 "and pharaoh said to joseph"i have had a dream, and there is no one who can interpret it. but i have heard it said of you that you cand understand a dream, to interpret it." 16. so joseph answered the pharaoh, saying, "it is not in me; god will give pharaoh an answer of peace." thats humility everything we do is only through god, you are breathing not because ur msucles tell ur lungs to push air but because god has allowed it and works in us. holy spirit keeps life going but he works through the son so we are all in the hands of god

vtm. proverbs 5.18-19 let your fountain be blessed, and rejoice with the wife of your youth 19. as a loving deer and a graceful doe, let her breasts satisfy you at all times; and always be enraptured with her love.

1 more week till moving day.

9 days into 2009

2009-01-09T07:46:00.000-08:00

today was genesis 36-38
hrm joseph and his many colored tunic. i wonder if theres a lesson in the blunt way he told his brothers that the sheaths bowed to his. =/ very honest....not sure about nice. in any case god takes no time to kill the wicked, chapter 38 god killed judah's first 2 sons instantly. to all readers who i think on the most part are male...pretty sure all 3 of u. chapter 38 v. 9 ok so yea OH i forgot

vtm. proverbs 5. 16-17 should your fountains be dispersed abroad, streams of water in the streets? 17. let them be only your own, and not for strangers with you.

another week closing so quickly another week to go and i will be back to rutgers yay? i need to go back im just rotting away in this house, but the weather got warmer so now i can shoot hoops when schools out and all the kids have left the elementary school (which is where i shoot the j) gotta practice make it rain kobe! lol got a long way to go for now its really more like shaq =(

day 8

2009-01-08T09:20:00.000-08:00

today was genesis 33-35
vtm proverbs 5.14-15 i was on the verge of total ruin, in the midst of assembly and congregation. 15. drink water from your own cistern and running water from your own well.

so esau had a change of heart and embraced his brother. sigh jacob's sons are messing with jacob and just doign what ever they please and jacob has to keep running poor rachel died giving birth to benjamin. a funny/painful part was when jacob's sons told the canaan people that all males needed to be circumsized. ouch.

2009-01-07T19:41:00.001-08:00

mwahahah the jason geon collaboration is coming soon! guarantee sometime within 2009 imma have a full digital cd! rofl maybe ill burn a cd mwahaha so excited!

7/365

2009-01-07T08:35:00.000-08:00

today was genesis 30-32
vtm proverbs5.12-13 and say: how i have hated instruction and my heart despised correction! 13. i have no obeyed the voice of my teachers, nor inclined my ear to those who instructed me!

so jacob...he prays by quoting the word of god we can take from that example it doesnt hurt to hold onto what god has said to us in prayer meditate? so jacob aka israel poor guy being used by his wives in the battle for who can have the most babies, rachel even sells her turn for mandrakes...what in the world.

day 6 of 365

2009-01-06T10:08:00.001-08:00

today was genesis [27-29] that means inclusive ha. math.
vtm proverbs 5.10-11 lest aliens be filled with your wealth and your labors go to the house of a foreigner. 11. and you mourn at last, when your flesh and your body are consumed

hrm.i should set an alarm clock. so blessings are like objects given out because even though isaac thought it was esau jacob still got it. =/ odd. i liked the part of jacob working for laban for 14 years to marry rachel and it says it went by like a few days for his love for her was great. pretty aweasome. not so much the 2 wives + a maid. that idk. as you keep reading genesis the father sends the son to get a wife but every time the father says to NOT go to the land of the caananites (idk if i spelt that correctly). so a clear warning to us all not to get involved with the lost, relationship wise. peace.

day 5

2009-01-05T13:18:00.000-08:00

today was genesis 24-26
vtm proverbs 5.8-9 remove your ways far from her, and do not go near the door of her house 9. lest you give your honor to others and your years to the cruel one

=| so isaac was blessed with rebekah in a peculiar way. but god doesnt do the same thing twice so i wont try it haha. the bags are really cool that was a surprise haha god has blessed us with cool nike bags, a promising start to the year, as we honor god he honors us.

2009-01-04T19:53:00.000-08:00

Angels surrounding His throne and
Worthy is the Lamb who was slain
The whole earth is full of His glory
All nations bow to His name
His majesty fills the Heavens
Our hearts give thunderous praise
Declare the Lord is forever
Make a joyful noise in this place

a short part from joyful noise, flame
which is now located on the sidebar ipod props to jp teach for sending em the song

day 4

2009-01-04T14:35:00.000-08:00

today was 19-23
vtm proverbs 5.6-7 lest you ponder her path of life, her ways are unstable, you do not know them. 7. therefore hear my now, my children, and do not depart from the words of my mouth.

the faith that abraham has to sacrifice isaac...nearly i dont have.i could say oh maybe but that would be a lie, im not making excuses i think its extra ordinary this man, his faith doesnt come from blessings, he was blessed for his faith. those who honor him will be honored 1 samuel 2.30 ah so many examples of men of faith gods giving me something to strive for this kinda life style is rare.

2009-01-03T20:02:00.001-08:00

ive done it!

yo in spanish they call him jesus (pronounce it the spanish way)
he defeated satan like prowrestler on juice
he left us with the holy spirit put him to good use
let him into your heart, let him do his part
change your life, radical transformation
its only natural like martin luther in the reformation
when he called out the church
after he did his own research
via bible did he search
gave us the foundation
to make a new christian nation
lead our lives through bibical application
not following so closely to the administration (catholic church and their traditions)
so we give out the gospel cause chain reaction
like in a pond of water thats exposed to vibration
our religion has no decoration
its a real relation....
ship
dont let it slip
god didnt save you so you can get right back in it
get a grip, sin is an addcition like to an american a potato chip
haha...
excuse me for getting a little funny
now my lines are getting way too runny
theres no organization to this rap
like a little kid on santa's lap
im just rambling on trying to pick a toy
but to put my lines to use is a great joy
feel better to all who are sick
maybe the next time someone offers u a taste of their ice cream
you wont lick
im so bored at home
i wish i was at a super dome
watching a game or concert
or at a conference where ppl are starting to convert
im not sure if that actually ryhmed so im gonna end my time
sigh these rhymes need work but i got till june 9
teen haha
see you all sunday

day 3

2009-01-03T08:05:00.000-08:00

today was genesis 14-18

vtm proverbs 5.4-5 but in the end she is bitter as wormwood, sharp as a two edged sword
5 her feet go down to death, her steps lay hold of hell.

slowly i feel more relieved, as my focus becomes slowly more toward god my mind becomes less cluttered, theres not as many distractions but the distractions the clutter is still there. this is a long process, changing your life, but it has to be done i want to be sanctified. worship aka worthship i never knew that before ha.

day 2...again.

2009-01-02T09:19:00.000-08:00

genesis 11-13 was today. so many things explained in genesis. why we all speak different languages and are in different places god separated us.

january 1rst was here and now gone we shall see where this year takes me. i want to drop all the distractions in my head its like endless thoughts just keep running through my head and its become so hard to focus i gotta wonder if they're there for a reason or im just being led away from focusing on him. this year will be a year of sanctification. i want to become wiser, i want my faith to grow so much that only explanation would be holy spirit. i want to be a man of god and i want to live like one. humility, selflessness, godliness and most importantly for me, utterly dependent i no longer want to attempt to fight the enemy by myself with what i have its a battle already lost, so yea i want to be dependent all things can only be done through the one that is strength virtue love and all the things that give us victory. these are what i aim for. pray for me please.

vtm
proverbs 5.2-3 that you may preserve discretion and your lips may keep knowledge
3for the lips of an immoral woman drip honey and her mouth is smoother than oil.

day 4 or really day 1...

2009-01-01T09:45:00.000-08:00

so today was messed up because i had to go early in the morning to uncle's place so i couldnt read my word first thing =/ so i read after but it just doesnt feel the same. idk. anyways i read genesis 8-10 uh hrm interesting but the wierdest or coolest was the rainbow, did you know that the rainbow is a promise to us that he wont destroy us via flood? haha...so look at that rainbow after its rained and thank god because he remembered not to destroy us. you will appreciate rainbows sooo much more that way hahaha.
vtm , verses to memorize haha,
revelations 2:11 " “He who has an ear, let him hear what the Spirit says to the churches. He who overcomes shall not be hurt by the second death.”"
proverbs 5:1 my son pay attention to my wisdom lend your ear to my understanding,

thats 1 proverb i will memorize, proverbs 5.

day 3

2008-12-31T09:08:00.000-08:00

genesis 5-7

so...guys back then lived 900 some years... kind of crazy.

genesis 6:6 and the lord was sorry that he had made man on the earth, and he was grieved in his heart

man...this isnt a history lesson, this is us. we are the ones that disappoint god from day to day. our heavenly father looks upon us and GRIEVES at our sin.

so noah was told to gather animals for the arc but im wondering if the lord provided the animals or he went out to get them. because it took him some hundreds of years. i undersatnd the arc is huge but maybe he had to gather all the animals, all the birds etc. nwo THAT is discipline lol. that is yes lord.

a new section for jason lee
memorize for today

colossians 3.2 set your mind on the things above, not on earthly things
1 samuel 2.30 for those who honor me, i will honor <-- thats not the whole verse. its from the spiritual discipline book.

btw. msn told me this ...did u guys know theres references to redemption via jesus in genesis 3? insane right?

day 2?

2008-12-30T10:35:00.000-08:00

genesis 2-4 so i found out that reading 1 chapter a day wont allow me to finish the bible in a year so now im donig 3. anyways its getting alittle confusing the of cain came enoch and enoch irad that whole thing anyways the main focus is that from the start god has been showing humanity grace. that even though they continued to sin in his face, he punished them, yes but not more than they could handle as can be seen with cain when he cries out that his punishment is too much. i think that theres so much love to be seen in these chapters, the sin that goes on from the start just shows how wicked humanity is. people will argue humanity is naturally good, the first few humans were obviously not. im not so sure about lamech, was the 2 wives thing acceptable back then? guys its gonna be 2009 soon... scary.

oh and my favorite verse was 2.18 and the lord said, it is not good that man should be alone; i will make him a helper comparable to him. haha i find this verse comforting i guess. be patient because god has already planned for me to not be alone its somewhere in that huge grand orchestrated plan so yea im not worried god has decided for it to happen.

ps. i had a dream that david crowde trimmed his beard so it was...normal sized and his hair was...normal sized. he actually looked like a regular person.

2008-12-29T16:47:00.000-08:00

in an attempt to keep myself accountable i will post my daily bible readings on this

genesis 1.
god spoke and the world existed and i have no problem with that at all.

2008-12-28T16:15:00.000-08:00

happy new year. lets aim high with our resolutions so that it takes 2009 to accomplish it or longer. yea.. this is after retreat and my mind is running on absolutly nothing in fact im surprised im not asleep. wide awake. the retreat was a blessing being with the d.e.m. folk was and always is so nice. so this month will be dedicated to disciplining myself starting with the book msn got me. gonna put it to good use.
lets become soldiers, to the front lines
be what jesus defines
to be molded in his image
2009 is a scrimmage
with the devil
whos trying to bring us to ground level
so lets raise our spirit level
one possible solution
a strong new years resolution
remove the pollution
thats clouding my heart
let the spirit take part
sanctification, god's work of art
in our lives, the victor that survives
suffer more than physical wounds from blunt knives
but its ok because hes an overcomer
and because of that im an overcomer
sin is a giant squirrel and im a bigger hummer
anyways happy new years
hope this rap brought you lots of laughter with tears
lets let his praise ring in both ears
loud and clear
this is my sign off
cant think of anything but cough. awkward cough. haha... ill get better...

much love,
jason

the benefit

2008-12-05T22:14:00.000-08:00

to all those who read,

so today or rather yesterday cuz its 1 in the morning of saturday. on friday my intervarsity had a benefit kinda thing for children who's fathers are in prison and we wrap gifts and give them gifts. in any case it was good but there was this one artist who was teh main event of our night and inbetween songs he shared a testimony about how he had a brain tumor and how god cured him. that, believe it or not, was not what struck me. during the 2.5 years that he was living with this tumor he decided to go into scripture to see if god was all that he was said to be. if he is who he is. in any case he always fell back to this parable in matthew about the 2 houses one on sand one on rock. now what was interesting was that he said that he always thought that there were 2 locations, 1 near the water which is dumb and another guy alittle farther away on rock foundation. and he said after research, no its the same place, one man built that house on sand and the other dug deep deep deep to get to that rock. now he said are we willing to dig deep to get to god or will we settle to build our house on sand. and mann it totaly reshaped wut i thought about that parable. side note. there is no master of the bible, you read it, you learn something. no matter how many times you read it. learn something. back on topic. so yea...am i willing to dig deep to get to that rock foundation am i wiling to work at it daily to settle my house where it was meant to be, where it is best suited for or will i be LAZY and settle for sand and eventually cause my own end. wheres that hunger in me? that wants that rock foundation that wants to dig deep no matter how far the hole goes down what ever it takes to get to the rock. am i willing? is my heart ready for this dig? so i say that im now beginning to renew my life, im going to dig my way through college life and secure my house upon rock with a big help from jesus holy spirit and god yea. so please pray for me, ive strayed away, getting distracted by school new people and my heart gave to all the distractions so now im going back im going to be purpose driven, jesus driven. yea. thanks for reading to all who do,(i feel like its only you msn). peace see you guys in like 2 weeks. schools out for me the week of the 15th- that week. =)

3 more weeks of school

2008-11-29T21:28:00.001-08:00

ugh 3 more weeks. got finals left. being a good steward is lots of work. so yea. its been really fun and very comforting seeing all of you guys (who ever reads these) and ill be back in 3 weeks.

bye ya'll

happy thanksgiving

2008-11-27T13:47:00.001-08:00

thanks

praise god part III

2008-10-29T16:28:00.000-07:00

mwahaha jason is going to the big event

its a pretty big event if you havent heard.
praise god. for what he has done, what he does, and what he will do.

2008-10-13T23:06:00.000-07:00

christ on the cross set the precedent
the verse "for god so loved the world" was clearly evident
his life lived by those left ova
who got in them the great jehovah
the holy spirit who helps us discern
the truth we learn
from sin we turn
our old lives we burn
for god we yearn
a new leaf, a new life led by the great commission
the acquisition of new souls with a convicted condition
this is our ambition, addition of those in submission
pleaing to god for some sort of recognition
so we got one truth to add
this new life to be had
paid full by the blood a perfect man
perfect god

out of rhymes. its 2 . 13 in the morning. class at 8...wut am i doing....stress is doing wierd things to me but i just felt like trying to rap. -,- idk.... failed calc test btw...if anyone wants to know haha. but i got an intro to micro economics test thrusday so yea... found myself a nice christian gropu, iv got bible studies monday, meetings thursdays, praise tuesday. found a church that i can go to , sorta, stil checking out some, one last church to visit, but if anything else i guess ...idk. plz pray for my church situation, god has given me many churchs available to me, its just a matter of which one im supposed to be at(besdies diaspora of course) kk? g'night sir's and ma'ams. or ya'll depending on who my readers are.

the presssure

2008-10-09T08:53:00.000-07:00

so...i foudn out i have an exam monday to go with my other exam on thursday...excellent excellent
im only taking 4 classes and im bogged down with work. i dont under standhow ppl are balancing all this stuff. im trynig to juggle work, volleyball, gym, swimming(which i have yet to do), eating,iv/praise team its like ahhhhhhhhh freaking out. how will next semester work out when im supposed to take like 6 classes....how do these people do it....college kids are amazing people. resilient. sigh...but i gotta admit while people are stressing out cuz every mistake changes their future i know that im pretty much at peace. lol. god provides. dont get me wrong im not just bumming around expecting work from the heavens(which we do...) but yea giving it my all knowing somethings comin. oh yea...havent updated my beloved brothers nd sisters yonder little falls about my life so....

got a 77 on my physc exam...which is a 87 with the curve, was hoping for higher but no compmlaints here. cant say i studied too much -,-. uh...yea like i said exam monday exam thursday. essay due monday uh... hm. i joined club volleyball dats fun. been working out uh hm wut else, oh im on a eat healthier diet for 2 weeks, no fat sandwhiches...if no body knows wuts that it is its basically a hero and they put in w.e they want so liek a fat darrel has philly cheesesteak, frenchfries, mottzerella sticks, chicken fingers and like marinara sauce. u get the picture? its goooood but it'll also give u clogged arteries. uh... i like iv alot, it seems alil in the making, its small, the building we're in we just got it and we dont wanna over step our boundaries just yet so we dont have any loud and long worshpi cuz we have like 1 hr in there or something. uh...wut else is there...quit taekwondo cuz iv> taekwondo ...they meet at the same time so yea. uh havent found a church but these next two weeks ill either be going to grace c. church i forget wut the c stand for or praise. both have vans from my campus center to there so yea. promising stuff. hm...is there anything else to say? started my devo book the walking withgod day by day its good spiritually ive become stronger cuz its really ....worldly here
im not going to lie to you all...any secular school is pretty much antichrist college. i mean theres even an std for rutgers. ppl are starting to try nd push me to go party nd drink cuz they found out ive never done nything. starting to call me gay cuz im not takign an interest in girls at the moment. its all just getting rough but at the same time, imnot giving in, holy spirit is sayin no so i say no. still kinda sick not really just have the after effects, lots of snot, spittitng out these yellow mess. ears seem clogged and my throat is alil scratchy. uh.... yea so. keep me in ur prayers plz after doing september devos in proverbs i want wisdommmmmm. gotta go study now. take care love you all, miss you all. see u guys thanksgiving time. maybe even sooner who knows after my exams? =) btw. desiringgod.ord resources.....good stuff thanks jp teach. oh nd i joined a small group to that meets mondays. so yea...peace
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a quick note before i die a slow painful death

2008-10-08T21:09:00.000-07:00

never drink a lil cup of hotsauce for 2 dollars....
dats all im going to say.

card

2008-09-23T08:36:00.000-07:00

ah man. read the card...to all those who wrote in korean...thanks for giving me practice it took awhile but i got it!

love you all for everything, especially the girls cake, cookies, brownies they were all good i was so shocked, did NOT expect that at all. you guys are aweasome.

mm yea ill see u guys in thanksgiving break.bogged down with work mm yea.

share a verse with you, it may seem silly but now that im here in college its like BIG

Proverbs 6:9-11

9 How long will you slumber, O sluggard?
When will you rise from your sleep?
10 A little sleep, a little slumber,
A little folding of the hands to sleep—
11 So shall your poverty come on you like a prowler,
And your need like an armed man.

get up. dont waste time sleeping. not saying to NOT sleep but we waste(i know i do on wednesdays and saturdays) too much time sleeping. rest in heaven theres work to be done.

shall we accept the good from god but not the bad?

2008-09-07T18:38:00.000-07:00

sigh i dont know what to do so im just typing i need to release. so confused.

the lord gave and the lord has taken away may the name of the lord be praised.

i wish i had the faith to say this right now.

2008-08-31T22:50:00.000-07:00

ah man the evangelism is going hard. i went through the gospel with him but it all comes to him that nothing is real that we should all follow our own hearts man. his heart is so cold to it. he thinks nothign is true because we all precieve.

day 2/3

2008-08-31T21:57:00.000-07:00

istill think its day 2 even though its 1...so techinically its day 3. in any case. im doing alrite. kinda boring here havent made any REAL friends but i guess taht will take time. waiting for IV icecream social etc. those club events yea. uh doin alrite its alot to take in at once all the info, bus routes websites, places to go to where everythign is. etc. lots of freedom but no worries i aint being led astray. visited a church called cccf or ccf or ccccf not sure which. no sermon instead it was like 6 testomines about a missions team that came back from...i cant spell it some country in south america starts w. an s. in any case gonna look at praise church next ah man guys plz pray i find a church dats gospel centered and dat'll be good for me. it aint easy cuz idk anyone here like some, =/ in any case the troubles. start w the small...i cant poop seriously...being at a foreign place i jus cant do it. ill hafta eat lots of fiber soon. hrm yea roommate seems very very stubborn. talks about my beliefs have come up but he claims there is no validity in any of it because he believes nothing is a reality =/ idk pray for david its an on goign thing. pray for me dat i can lead a life dat god can use to save his soul. yup dats all i got.

college life. it aint easy stuff. co'ed dorms its controllable cuz im a social loser so no one comes in.. sometimes ppl do but in any case yea lots of room for temptations. everything seems to be related to sex or parties(drinking) got friends going off to frat parties hopefully not drinking but man its everywhere. pray for me. coolege is satan's playground seriously... it needs the light so badly. yea dats all i got peace god bless missed you all love you all.

RU ready? haha get it? RU=rutgers university..haha.

2008-08-28T21:24:00.001-07:00

so its friday...technically. just 1 more day till i leave did some clothes shopping and i got myself a shirt from steve nd barry's , i know its secular store but when i saw it . yea i laughed but i also thought yea its go time . btw my shirt says "its go time" and it has a silhoutte of a granny on that walker kinda thing. ironic. anyways. its go time man...my mission field is here. keep the students here in prayer. dat includes me. so msn says lets do this. ive patented "its go time."

to get myself pumped.

send me I'll go,
send me I'll go,
lemme go lemme go!

i seen it with my own two,
there's no way i can show you
a perfectly poverty stricken people with no view.
And i bet you can't believe this,
rutgers never heard of jesus.
Heard young buck , lil wayne, and young jeezy.

No one's signing up to go on missions this summa.
Rather sit at home and watch exibit pimp in a humma
while a nine year old is shot down.
No one's screaming 'stop now!'
no bridge illustrations for criminals who on lock down.

People deep in africa
looking for an answer bra'.
In china man,
they're dieing man,
until they know who died for sins.
So look what grace did.
Not for us to stay here
inside our comfort zones
at home in mama's basement.

Get out on the grind y'all.
Ain't no better time doll.
I know y'all read the great commission.
Let me just remind y'all:
make disciples of the nations.
Teach'm to obey the lord.
Have to lead someone to christ before i face the lord.

Send me I'll go,
send me I'll go,
send me I'll go,
lemme go lemme go!
(repeat x4)

hey! After, 1,000 years in the west and the churches
get'n bigger daily without understand'n worship. (say what?)
Some regenerate but a lot ain't saved.
You walk outside and be surprised cuz the block ain't changed.
And the numbers they be get'n me.
Something just ain't hit'n them.
America ain't christian they practice'n the ritual.
That's why we should be mission though.
Hey, what you think i'm spit'n for?
The united states is die'n
and in the east is looking pitiful.

Some places if they catch you
they'll arrest you.
They'll serve you,
but they still need the word too.
The gospel should be heard too.
We claim we ain't ashamed,
but we ain't hit the block up.
Were in our christian bubble,
while our brotha's get'n locked up.
Lord i wanna stock up,
pack a bag and walk up
in a country where my faith may get me shot up
anywhere i go, whether my city or far abroad,
i just wanna show' christ the risen holy god.

Send me I'll go,
send me I'll go,
send me I'll go,
lemme go lemme go!
(repeat x4)

i know they're die'n in the streets over in the middle east.
Some kids sink in piece
others hold'n up a piece.
If the violence doesn't cease,
then at least the deceased
might know jesus as their savior as their bodies hit the streets.
And i know this is a graphic view.
And i pray that it's attack'n you.
Track'n you to act and do
what you see in the back illusion.
Mathew twenty-four and fourteen.
We should read it twice
before we think that life is just a battle
see we free in christ!
Look dawg! Life is more than church work and football!
What if you were dead and seen that christians overlooked y'all!
This is why we leave the couch
and leave the comforts of our house
to show a die'n world a god they'll probably never read about.

The great commission says make disciples of all nations.
Have we even made them in our own nation?
Come on christians!
Missions exist because worship doesn't.
People don't worship the god who made them.
We're ambassadors.
Let's go!

Send me I'll go,
send me I'll go,
send me I'll go,
lemme go lemme go!

my mailing address =)

2008-08-26T09:07:00.001-07:00

JASON LEE
Rutgers, The State University of New Jersey
20727 BPO WAY
Piscataway, NJ 08854-8107

dont be a stranger now.

2008-08-23T19:50:00.000-07:00

take my burdens my hopes and my dreams and do what you want with my life

i wish i could say this with all of my heart but there are so many things holding me back. my own selfish desires. sigh man i want to live by god's timing for everything instead of rushing into things on my own. this is my personal prayer at the moment.

hrm

2008-08-16T09:14:00.000-07:00

well ill start by saying that this week has drawn me closer to God in terms of prayer. i find myself praying for every little thing and every big thing. i guess it took some time to understand that i can talk to God... isnt it incredible? this universe is run by God and yet he is always hearing our prayers i guess that is one qualification to being God....aweasomeness. seirously its like wow i can talk to the one and only God, now thats something impressive and its something ib say im very greatful for that God is loving, or rather God is love. to hear our prayers, to guide our lives to keep us safe and of course pay for our lives via Jesus. ill probably never fully grasp the amount of love God has for us because everyday it seems that God has up'ed the love i mean it seems only natural because everyday i sin and i am even more disgusting in front of God, so i feel like he ups the love to over look my sins everyday. Gotta love this God man... for everythign hes given. esp. fellowship, ive had a good amount of fellowship this week. sharing talking and playing monopoly =.= .

Prayer Requests
David Martin, my roommate pray for his heart to open up to this gospel cuz its all up to God, effective calling nahm sayin?

mm heading off to college soon, unlike every other d.e.m. hs graduate i will NOT be around my fellow d.e.m. brothers and sisters but hopefully i can find brothers and sisters that can help me grow further in God so yea uh idk what my church situation is . plz just pray it all works out where ever God wants me and im sure he'll put me there i jus hope i stay on his track and not go off and do my own thing.

my dad is still not saved. please keep him in your prayers. i dont know wuts holding him back, but what ever is guarding his heart needs to be gone.

praise God part II

2008-08-13T18:31:00.000-07:00

lol....God jus keeps getting amazing, i was going ot wait till i saw him face to face to share the gospel but this guy goes ahead and asks about my sn "wesouledout" so i jus shared the gospel...God is speeding things up alot. putting all these opportunities b4 me. hopefully ill be able to follow up with him in person though. God is amazing.

praise God

2008-08-13T13:51:00.001-07:00

=) today my roommate and i talked about God. it didnt get anywhere but i think hes open to it. sort of. he asked me wut i believe in asked me about creation evolution and then shared his beliefs and as odd as they are its a start. so please keep david martin in your prayers, that God will convict his heart. open his eyes and just accepts truth. that david martin will be with us in heaven one day praisin God with us. =). the guys very much into philosophy talked to me about that i can only prove my existence cuz im alive to witness it or something. yea. idk pray for him. cause im going to be living with him for the rest of the year and i dont wanna see h im everyday not saved. =/ nahm sayin? peace d.e.m. God bless.

housing -.-

2008-08-01T11:56:00.000-07:00

so i now will be living at busche campus for the next year with a guy by the name of david martin. how interesting it will be to live with someone who i assume to not be asian. a wierd wierd situation indeed.

Holla

2008-07-24T17:26:00.000-07:00

standfast 08: living hope

i got that living hope, living in me.
retreat was awesome, its really weird being at a retreat from the way i was at one but i think its once in a lifetime. and ill tell you one of the best thigns i got was peace with my brother. we used to go to war everyday. and on the last days when i washed his feet i made peace with him. probably should have been sooner but you know wut? better now then never. i told him i love him for the first time. He brings peace to our madness, he repairs broken relationships like mine. =) if god can fix a relationship like mine, what cant he do? so i go into college not scared. i go in excited for what god will use me for and i stay ready. cuz im ready now. lets a go.