long over due

hrm....so i guess if i have to write about something it'll be about basilea


um lets see i begin with week 2 i suppose. chris dickson was meh... the speaker nicole something in my opinion was a story teller up until the last 10 minutes when she got to her actual message. but the small group leaders track was pretty eye opening. i did not realize how many people came to christ and how fellowships grew through small groups it really burned me up to get this going this coming year and ill be doing an all freshman small group so get um young and make a real impact on the campus. but the real blessings that came upon the already blessings. so this was like the ever so delicious blessing frosting on the blessing frosting on the cake known as my life. work crew.... so i was a server i had no real expectations coming in but from get go the brothers and sisters were pretty cool pretty open and loving they were actually majority asian so i guess it was some what comfortable. i was a server and ive never done this kind of serving thing before but it was HUMBLING...taking the orders of people. i was nothing i basically just gave them what ever they wanted it was something else i was really ticked off towards the later meals just cause i was tired and all that nonsense but then they gave us a message that we get to show christs love through the way we serve. to show that they are loved. which is the reason why every table was set up perfectly the same, chairs were perfectly aligned with each other just the most craziest 5 star stuff. by the end of the week they do this thing. who got saved during this retreat. and behold the dude that sat at my table every day minus 1 day(which was the day he got saved i know because when he asked me for hotsauce he was REALLY happy to see me. unlike the other days where he kinda wished i was someone else). in any case basilea big big blessing. hopefully i wont lose fire over this summer. =/ hard part.

if christianity is what it says it is it only makes sense to devote one's entire life because of what it claims, and what it offers it makes no sense to believe the truth that christianity boasts and yet not devote one's entire life.

and yet here i am. still not giving my entire life to christ. please pray for my lack of faith right now.

god listens, god delivers. prayers dont go out of our mouths and get lost.

19 The next morning the Israelites got up and pitched camp near Gibeah. 20 The men of Israel went out to fight the Benjamites and took up battle positions against them at Gibeah. 21 The Benjamites came out of Gibeah and cut down twenty-two thousand Israelites on the battlefield that day. 22 But the men of Israel encouraged one another and again took up their positions where they had stationed themselves the first day. 23 The Israelites went up and wept before the LORD until evening, and they inquired of the LORD. They said, "Shall we go up again to battle against the Benjamites, our brothers?"
The LORD answered, "Go up against them."

24 Then the Israelites drew near to Benjamin the second day. 25 This time, when the Benjamites came out from Gibeah to oppose them, they cut down another eighteen thousand Israelites, all of them armed with swords.

26 Then the Israelites, all the people, went up to Bethel, and there they sat weeping before the LORD. They fasted that day until evening and presented burnt offerings and fellowship offerings [c] to the LORD. 27 And the Israelites inquired of the LORD. (In those days the ark of the covenant of God was there, 28 with Phinehas son of Eleazar, the son of Aaron, ministering before it.) They asked, "Shall we go up again to battle with Benjamin our brother, or not?"
The LORD responded, "Go, for tomorrow I will give them into your hands."
judges 20

lol i realized that i posted this without acutally writing wut i thought. so. these people prayed for victory overbenjamites and so first time...fail. so what did they do next? they didnt blame god and give up. they cried out louder and got down lower. and god answered and rocked them. lesson? well. its kind of obvious. for me i always pray for stuff...not always happens what do i do? i usually stop being in my human mind i think in such a small perspective that i dont really have the large picture(only god could really have the large picture but..yea) and so when i pray for somethign i resolve to pray until it is done. to fast and pray for the things we want god to deliver us from to give us victory praise god because theres a huge book that accounts for everytime he was there.

judges 10

this is the god i worship
this is the god i love
and the god that i put my trust in

"And the children of israel said to the lord"we have sinned! do to us whatever seems best to you; only deliver us this day, we pray." 16 so they put away the foreign gods from among them and served the lord. AND HIS SOUL COULD NO LONGER ENDURE THE MISERY OF ISRAEL." ~judges 10.15-16

god feels our pain, god hears our cries. he rejoices with us in triumph and mourns with us in sorrow. he delivers us from evil and guides us through storms. he is the greatest power in this universe and what ever else hes created and he chose US. praise god.

huh... so i heard about the church from esther uh pastor kim leaving and the possibility of a church break up. ive been in 2 church break ups before and i really wonder why these things happen. what happens that god closes his house, but then i think why do we hold so tightly to the church we are apart of? its these bonds that we make that i dont really see in any other church. i havent blogged in awhile, keep putting it off, i guess this situation just pushed me to write. so ill start by updating, uh well im still reading 1 chapter away from joshua so that'll start tomrrow...or today its 1.50 am. so i dont have much thoughts on this church situation, to be honest it seems so far away from me. im not sure what im supposed to think, 1 part will miss all the people but another part knows that if a church is breaking up its a sign that perhaps there was too much complancency w.e u spell that word where you happy with what you got. im not sure. it'll be in my prayers let god lead us to what ever decision that he wants. =/. be strong guys. its a storm, god always sees us through

btw please pray for my walk, i know thats very vague and kinda worn out everyone says it uh i mean that the verses im trying to memorize really get engraved into my mind and my heart that im seeking god and that im being sanctified daily, please pray for the campus around me, the people in my dorm god would open their hearts to the gospel that they would not hate christianity and god so much and i dont know that i would be unashamed that i got jesus. please pray for jesus awarness week that it would really change hearts, its a success even if 1 person gets saved luke 15. 3-7 uh and pray that the demons would be just knocked out from here because right after jesus awarness week theres islam awarness week or something and those guys will be fasting and praying and you know. when people worship false idols it permits satan to enter, so yea we wanne keep going with jesus awanress week long after its over, so please pray for the christian organizations taht we look to higher goals and not be stuck within our own clubs cuz jesus is jesus whether im korean or hes white. yea i/rutgers needs your prayers. thanks guys and gals. god bless

did i mention i finished numbers?
im on Deuteronomy yea read chapter 5. woo. another book done hyah!
got my flash cards and im getting the verses down.

main reason why im blogigng
so sunday night i went for some reason randomly i got a call to attend the jaws planning meeting. so jaws is jesus awarness week. and its held by all these differetn christian organizations which is aweasome because from what i hear, since im only a frosh that these organizations dont really work together but thats kinda dumb since we all have the same goal to change this campus into christ centered one. in any case so they were all together and ive never seen such passionate college kids, minus the ones at diaspora. these guys are just pulling out all these crazy plans. to reach out like offer the frats to clean their houses while at the same time showing love and presenting a gospel, etc. etc. in any case this by itself was aweasome but the crazy part was that uh this copule they run the ruhop, rutgers university house of prayer and these guys are crazy about prayer. they had this story bout some copule who visited this famous speaker and they sit down and without knowing the speaker sits next ot them and the copule asks what makes this speaker so powerful? why do all these people drive across the country to see this guy? and the man goes come check out the boiler room and hesitantly they go and they see that in this tiny boiler room theres 600 people praying. and i was just like AHHHH. and this other guy this freshman i was so amazed by this guys insight im so noob comapared to these guys. he goes uh we should be like babies when we pray because babies when they want something they cry and the degree of crying is relative to how badly they want it. so when we want god to work in jaws or to work in the campus we need to pray like we want it. to really pray crying out to god. yea so this has really radically changed my view on prayer ive always known prayer is powerful i guess its just around these people these guys like me, crhstiains in a secular school a clear minority ive come to see that there are no mediocre chrsitians they are either falling into the secular lifestyle or they are reaching out to god more, reaching harder because of this college lifestyle. ive come to realize im getting drawn into it and this was a very very much needed awakening. yea. a crazy end or start to the week. ill be comeing end of the month guys or rather who ever reads this anymore... sorry i havent updated regularly i either forget or am bogged...well this blog only takes 5 minutes...er...yea ill get this going.